Hiya Pinkies. Almost three weeks have elapsed since I experienced my Pink intuitive reading from Mojo Mentor Caroline Bobart. Usually, when things happen, I write about them instantly. It’s almost as if writing something makes it real for me. But this time, I needed time to process what I experienced. I’m honestly not sure words will do it justice, but I wanted to take a stab and sharing with you how my first real intuitive reading went.
First off, there were no gypsy scarves or crystal balls, and never once did we use the word “psychic.” Instead, we connected voice-over-internet via Skype from Wales to California, as if we were talking over the telephone. Caroline asked me to repeat my name three times, and then I listened. I didn’t record her so don’t quote me on this, but from the notes I took right after we finished, Caroline communicated something like this.
Your aura is dark blue at your crown and fades in a graded fashion to white at your feet. The dark blue at the top represents your creative self, traveling between the astral plains and earth. You spend a lot of time in the astral planes, then bring back information that you communicate via your art and your writing. This allows you to have a wide perspective on quirky things. You scan landscapes and energy and bring into this reality things that are relevant to where you are right now, channeling that awareness of what goes on in the astral planes.
In your second chakra, within your womb, lies the white energy of your mother. You hold her in your space to keep her safe, just above your grounding. It’s safe and warm, so she hangs out there.
When I look at your grounding, where you connect with the earth, I see white light going to the center of the planet. But I see that you are uncertain about how much to release. Your creativity takes away from your ability to stay grounded. If you are not well grounded, you topple more easily because you’re not physically anchored. Because you struggle with staying grounded, you hold a lot of energy within you, because it cannot flow through you into the center of the earth. Because you function in higher levels of awareness, your grounding and lower chakras get neglected.
When I look at your spirit, I see that you have a huge capacity above your 7th chakra to take in spiritual energy. You connect easily to your higher self, and that’s what others sense about you. They see a lot of spinning, lovely energy which is nurturing, healing, and validating to others. The growth for you lies in coming to terms with the effect you have on others. There’s a shyness you have about this. Part of you recognizes the effect you have on others, while another part of you thinks, “Holy shit.” You feel some trepidation about the role you are playing in the lives of others and your ability to affect their lives. You ask yourself, “What do I do with this power? Who am I?” You struggle to label it and aren’t sure what to do with this. Your growth comes in realizing that labels are being exploded- you’re not just a doctor or artist or writer. But the dust hasn’t settled yet, leaving you in this in-between place. You’re still exploring where you belong.
Your aura holds the energy of many other people within your space. Your aura should be mostly your own energy, but because you feel responsible for many others who hang out in your aura, it makes it hard for you to feel yourself. You’re not conscious of the boundaries of your aura, so the boundaries are blurry. Your aura is a playground, which makes you less certain of yourself. Because your aura gets so crowded with the energy of other people, you tend to get out of your body, which makes your body feel a little foreign to you.
Other people tend to seek their own grounding through your space, and you’ve unconsciously tried to organize it in your own space. You want others to feel safe in your space, yet it’s hard to manage energy that is not your own. If you become more aware of this, you can create, within Owning Pink, an energetic space that is well grounded. Then you can encourage people’s energy to move out of your space and ground into Owning Pink’s energetic space, outside of your personal aura, which can provide much more room for others to ground, grow, and blossom.
Why do others crowd your aura? It’s an exchange you’ve agreed upon. “I’ll give you warmth and safety if you’ll validate me. From early on, I’ll love you, but you need to see me.” I can see this fear on top of your aura, above your crown. There’s this orange vibration- this fear of not being seen. It’s based upon your past life energy. 300 years ago, I see that you were an old spinster dressed in black. You were a time-traveler, a shaman. You could navigate different realms, enabling you to have a huge, expansive perspective. But in this past life, your gifts went unrecognized. You were alone and never validated. No one could see you. You had no opportunity to be of service. Those gifts stayed locked away. You still hold pain that remains from that past life, when you were persecuted because of your gifts. You’ve made a commitment in this lifetime to spew forth creative energy, without holding anything back. You run full force and are unapologetic about the amount of creative energy you can channel. But you still fear not being seen. So you invite others to enter your aura, because they make you feel seen, validated. Because of this, your personal space has become community space. You need to reclaim your personal space, so you can continue to create and channel this energy from the astral realms. Reclaiming your personal space will help you better serve others, because you will become more grounded. And you will invite others to ground their own energy in something more expansive, an energetic space big and free enough to allow the energy of others to flourish.
For your next purposeful steps, I see a body detoxification, which will help you cleanse your aura and make it your own. I also see you meditating and learning to inhabit your body, which will help ground you and let some of the spiritual energy that enters your crown course through you and ground you into the planet. Finally, trust your community and empower them to create the energetic space where we all can ground together, without crowding your aura.
Then, Caroline opened up the rest of the time for questions, we processed a bit, and the reading was over.
How did it feel? Let’s just say that the 300 year old spinster from my past life had a heyday. I felt completely seen, not in some creepy, invasive way. More like “Wow, someone actually gets me.” Because I don’t really want anyone to spoil the surprise of what my future might hold, I was a little worried that Caroline’s clairvoyance might wind up divulging something I might not wish to know about my future. When will I die? Will I get rich and famous one day? Will my child get ill one day? What number will win the lotto? These are questions I don’t want answered. But Caroline said nothing surprising, nothing I was unwilling to hear.
In fact, she had told me beforehand that I would be “seeing” myself along side of her, and truth is, she was right. I found myself nodding, expanding, and seeing my crowded blue and white aura and my mother in my womb. I see that I am always spinning in my head and that I struggle to stay grounded. I went dancing with a girlfriend a week ago, and she said, “Even when you dance, you raise your arms over your head and dance on tippy-toe. What would it feel like if you bent your knees and rooted yourself closer to the ground?” At first, I resisted. Why bent lower? Why not reach for the stars? But when Caroline was speaking, I saw myself bending my knees, sprouting roots, and bringing all that astral energy through me. Perhaps I would be less spinny, less in my head, more grounded.
I could write about this for hours (and certainly will). But mostly, I wanted you Pinkies to vicariously experience what a Pink intuitive reading would be like. I found it profoundly enlightening. Already, my life is shifting. I can feel it, as the tectonic plates of my energetic presence on this earth move just a notch.
It brings to mind the words of the former Cat Stevens. “To be what you must, you must give up what you are.” I guess I feel like I am in that state of flux, trying to straddle two different lives, knowing, deep down, that to fully inhabit my power, I must stand, firmly rooted with two feet, in the life I’m meant to live.
Thank you Caroline, for this profoundly moving, earth-shifting, consciousness-raising, insightful, intuition-revving, loving experience. Words fail to do it any sort of justice. Trust me on this one, Pinkies…
Would you Pinkies be interested in geting a Pink intuitive reading of your own from Caroline? Are you curious how your life and your aura appear in the Unseen realms? Would you be willing to explore the spiritual lessons you might learn in this lifetime? Would you appreciate guidance as you reach for your full PINK potential? Let us know. We at Owning Pink are considering setting up the opportunity for phone or voice-over-internet sessions with very special Mojo Mentors like Caroline to help facilitate your journey as you take the next step on the Pink path. We'd love your honest feedback. Read more about Pink Intuitive Readings with Caroline Bobart.
With gratitude to you all for helping me heal past wounds and feel seen,
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