Cheerio Pinkies, and happy Mojo Monday.
Joy here. Today’s Mojo Monday exercise was inspired by the extraordinarily talented Pink Posse member Christa, who wrote this exquisite letter on the Posse blog. Naturally, we at OP were instantly inspired and started typing up our own hymns to this often overlooked but most precious month. HUGE thanks to Christa for all she has stirred up with her words. Here’s what poured out of me (but before you read it, please check out Christa’s … it is gorgeous, poetic, and the reason for this powerful Mojo Monday exercise).
Dear October,
When on earth did you get here? And when did you get to be so STUNNING? Your arrival with all its crystal crispness has drawn me outside at every possible moment, to work, to walk, to wish. San Francisco summer is one persnickety sister, and September’s like her younger sibling. But you, October, you steal in without a scene or fanfare, taking us all by surprise, blinding us with your light, awakening us to the change all around us, calling us to live appreciatively in it rather than be rocked or jostled by the inevitable turning of the seasons of life.
Back in my fear and loathing stage, when I was in a very different place (physically and in every other way), you were to be both feared and loathed by me … despite your benign beginnings, the tail-end cold of you would shoot straight through clothing to bone, diminishing the delight of fall colors. I never bothered to emotionally alight on anything that would be so fleeting and impermanent. You were a harbinger of the long cold winter to come. I dreaded the long darkness you represented. Maybe now that I’m here, in a place where seasons mean a change in day length more than one in temperature – but also here, in a place of slowing down and SEEING that there’s kindness and there’s beauty and there’s love – I am able to breathe you in for the marvelous gifts you bestow.
For me you are the impending birth of my first-ever niece; the anniversary of my parents; the death of my father (and the celebration of his life). You are when we moved into our magical house on the hill; you are the tinge of holiday nervousness; you are a descent into a quiet contemplation that I am determined this year to recognize as simply another season of life.
Now that you mention it, October, I do feel the slowing. Things aren’t as crowded and frenetic. There’s more spaciousness and less stress. Ostensibly nothing has changed, aside from you being here, wide open, and inviting me to take a deep breath and settle in. Every day wasn’t meant to be summer. Life has its winters too, and you walk gently beside me as I take steps toward this understanding. Beginnings are wonderful. Endings are treasures. Everything in between is just fine as well. And on it goes.
Thank you October for opening my eyes to the unmistakable exquisiteness in all the things of life – even the cold, and the dark, and the stillness, and the death.
You are so beautiful,
Joy
Little does Christa know the layers of discovery she provoked by starting this. For me, this exercise ended up being much more about Owning right where I am right now; the present moment; and all there is. It pulled me back into the now, and opened my eyes to new dimensions of acceptance and surrender. It reminded me of a passage I recently read from Chyogyam Trungpa’s Shambala: Sacred Path of the Warrior:
You begin to see that there are seasons in your life in the same way as there are seasons in nature. There are times to cultivate and create, when you nurture your world and give birth to new ideas and ventures. There are times of flourishing and abundance, when life feels in full bloom, energized and expanding. And there are times of fruition, when things come to an end. They have reached their climax and must be harvested before they begin to fade. And finally, of course, there are times that are cold and cutting and empty, times when the spring of new beginnings seems like a distant dream. Those rhythms in life are natural events. They weave into one another as day follows night, bringing, not messages of hope and fear, but messages of how things are.
So Pinkies, start with a letter to October on this beautifully autumnal Mojo Monday. See what comes up. What are you ready to own, accept, release? What are your feelings in general about the start of fall, and what is coming up for you that’s unique to this particular October? Maybe it will feel better to whittle your words down to just today, or this very second. Or perhaps an ode to this Whole Year feels more appropriate. Whatever it is, Own it all. And please, of course, share your letters with us in the comments section.
Yours right now (and now) (oh! and even now),
Joy
****Hiya, Pinkies! Lissa here. I was so inspired by Christa's and Joy's letters that I just wrote one of my own:
Dear October,
Welcome, old friend! You have long been my favorite season, perhaps because I spent years growing up in Florida, where October heralded a respite from the oppressive heat and daunting summer rains. October emerged with a crispness and the occasional sweater day. Fashions of fall- orange, brown, purple, crimson, colors I love. After the garishness of summer neon, fall invites a sense of grounding, a return to the earth, as the trees shed their festive sugar maple leaves and flowers fade.
There is an impending hibernation in the air, the knowing of cold days, maybe snow, bald trees, short days. But with it comes an exhilarating hope, as you arrive, splendid in your autumn dress, to celebrate the season’s turn.
But these are merely the superficialities, October. Deeper in lies a quieting of the soul that I crave in my chaotic, frenzied life. There’s a sense of turning inward, of drawing into the heart, and building a cocoon around me. I have this deep sense of knowing that things are about to change, that next October will not offer me this luxury, as I will be swirling in the madness of a book tour, of media attention I fear, of being separated from my family as I spread the Pink message of love, light, wholeness and acceptance. This is coming- I know it. So now is the time to turn in, October, to prepare myself, to strengthen my ties to myself and my family, to heal old wounds, to clarify my vision, to nurture my body, to commune with the Divine, to be still and listen.
This will be the long part of this lengthy gestation. The next six months will be the third trimester, the long waiting before the storm of change. You October, are that turning point, with the conception and development of this phase of my life near completion. You will prepare me to become the butterfly I must.
You are a reminder that all things come, and then all things pass. That life is impermanent, that there’s no point attaching to the spring flower that must fade or to the summer days that linger endlessly. Change is inevitable. We can expend all of our energy resisting it, or we can simply let go.
So this is my mission. I surrender to you, October. I bless you for all that you are and all that you challenge me to be. I love you.
Yours without season,
Lissa
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Comments
Erin, Cathy, and
By Christa Avampato (not verified) on Friday, 10/09/2009 at 4:17 PMErin, Cathy, and Pauline, Love the letters to October. Even in just a few days, I am already breathing easier. Pauline, you are so right. This is a season to celebrate and rejoice in just being, exactly the way we are right now. I am continually amazined by the similarity in all of these letters - that rather than October being a time of endings, we all view it as a time of new beginning. Warms my heart. Thank you!
xoxo, C
Ahhhh....yes, October. And
By Lissa Rankin on Wednesday, 10/07/2009 at 10:37 AMAhhhh....yes, October. And thank you dear Pinkies for sharing.
Letter to October 2009 The
By Pauline Salois Gillespie (not verified) on Wednesday, 10/07/2009 at 10:25 AMLetter to October 2009
The first northwest summer in three years to delight my senses and keep me warm is turning into an outstanding Indian summer. Fall has always been my favorite season. Signaling a return to school (a fresh start at learning), warm cozy fashionable clothes, a new beginning and something like excitement. I lived on the east coast for my first eight years and I clearly remember visiting Harvard University and climbing steps to a beautiful building – perhaps the library – in a tweed skirt with boots and feeling like I was meant to go there someday. To this day college campuses fill me with longing. Longing to be a student of the world. To soak it all up. To make something amazing of myself.
So fall, and October specifically, brings me to this place of longing, of renewal, of change, of excitement. The gorgeous, vibrant colors, the pungent earth, the change in the air, crisp wind, all combine to bring a smile to my face, renewed interest in learning and perhaps for the first time, the desire to connect to my true self and what? To BE, Just BE.
Dear October: I welcome your
By Cathy (not verified) on Wednesday, 10/07/2009 at 7:35 AMDear October:
I welcome your glorious blaze each year. Here in Western New York, you can be warm and gentle, or you can turn on a dime and bring us wind, rain, and shocking cold. (Witness our 2006 “October Surprise” snowstorm, where you brought down trees and power lines — just showing us who’s boss!) But on a sunny October day, the sky looks bluer. The marigolds in the garden are still holding strong – all tough beauty and persistence, because now is the time for their colors… right through to the Mexican “Day of the Dead” celebration next month.
I love your down comforters, apples and cinnamon, and the beginning of the long season where our cat stretches out in front of the heat register. I don’t mind putting away my summer clothes, because you give me the chance to reconnect with my favorite hues – rich russets and purples, moss greens, and deep earth tones.
You are my birthday month. As family lore tells it, I was supposed to be born around Christmas, but apparently couldn’t wait… making it here safe and sound (despite grim predictions and weeks in an incubator). So while every birthday reminds me that I’m getting older, it also nudges me to appreciate my life and health. Sometimes I wonder — would things be different if all had gone according to the original plan?
You mark other celebrations, too. My husband and I first spotted the house we would eventually buy on a chilly Halloween eve, and we got married about a year later, on a spectacular autumn afternoon (coincidentally, also his parents’ 45th wedding anniversary). One of my favorite wedding photos shows us walking under a maple tree on our street, whose leaves turn red in an unfailing pattern each year – north side first. While the day was sunny and summer-like, there was a sudden, heavy rainstorm that evening – a perfect microcosm of life’s changes.
Thank you, October, for all that you are. You are beautiful to me.
I love the idea of writing
By Christa Avampato (not verified) on Tuesday, 10/06/2009 at 7:15 AMI love the idea of writing letters to every season. I bet it will keep us looking forward and will focus us on all the good things that each change brings. I'm all for it :)
Hugs, C
Erin, WOW! I mean, serious
By Lissa Rankin on Monday, 10/05/2009 at 5:12 PMErin, WOW! I mean, serious WOW! I love your letter. You rock, sister. Thank you for sharing. And October, thanks for being here for all of us. What do you think Pinkies? Do we need to write letters to each month? Or maybe at least each season? Hmmmm.....
Big OCTOBER love, Lissa
My oh my oh my Erin. What a
By Joy Mazzola on Monday, 10/05/2009 at 11:43 AMMy oh my oh my Erin. What a perfect piece of prose. Packed with almost more hilarity and wisdom than I could handle, and wrapped in that way you have of making words sing. THANK YOU for doing this ... I'm almost inspired to write another one now. However, I will sit here and bask in the beauty and rightness of everything you told October (and gave us the privilege to overhear). I was especially struck by the idea that heaven/the universe isn't "there," but rather here. In and around us. OF us. That truth also whapped me upside the head recently - thank you for the reminder of what a gift it is to know that. Blessings to you this sweater season. xoxo
This was such an inspiring
By Erin (not verified) on Monday, 10/05/2009 at 10:56 AMThis was such an inspiring idea that I immediately wrote my letter. Here you go and thanks to all of you for enriching my life and getting me to think Pink every day!
Dear October, You are my favorite. No, really, I don't say that to all the months when you're not around. You're actually my favorite.
"Why?" people ask. Well imaginary people who are questioning me, I don't know why. It's not my birthday month. There are no major day-off-from-work holidays. But when I think about you, October, a lifetime's worth of fall memories flash before my eyes. Don't worry, I won't describe them to you. That'd be like describing the dream I had last night with the plane I was late for because satellites were falling out of the sky. But hey, remember that full-sized skeleton Mom used to hang on the front door? That was awesome.
October, you herald the end and beginning of a cycle. You are a time to harvest the things I sowed in 2009 and to reflect on what I want to plant for the next year. Am I taking the whole farming metaphor too literally? Yes, probably, but I know you don't mind, October, because the harvest is what you're all about.
This year my harvest is particularly sweet. Last October I was suffering from some pretty severe life discomfort. This October I can see how far I have come, but - and here's the twist - without actually going anywhere. Last October I felt a strong urge to move myself out of my life, to pick myself up and plunk myself down somewhere else. I interpreted that feeling as an all caps MUST MOVE TO NEW CITY. It seems I interpreted incorrectly. (D'oh.)
I was thinking about the chapter I read for this week's spirituality class as I was driving to work this morning. It discussed how most people see the world as here and enlightenment/heaven/the universe as there. "How do we get from here to there?" we worry. And at some point on the journey, we come to realize that there is here. The Universe, heaven, whatever you want to call it is here and the separation we perceive is just that; our perception. When I read it, I realized with no small measure of suprise that I already knew it. I can say with confidence I did not know that last year.
But that is way too esoteric for this letter, October. Let's just say that the things I believed last October have grown and changed and settled into me in REALLY AWESOME WAYS. And now I see how the Universe confused me: it told me to move, but it didn't mean physically move. It meant move who I am and what I believe. It meant move out the old, crappy beliefs about myself that are limiting me and move in some awesome new ones.
And OK, fine, October, it's true. I also love you for your football and your crisp, cool nights, your excellent sleeping temperatures and fall sweaters. Who doesn't love fall sweaters? People with NO SOULS, that's who. (I'm kidding.) You herald the return of knitting-and-tea season, comfortable nights on the couch with movies, and well-deserved rest. But don't talk to me about January. MAN, I hate that guy.
Anyway, let's spend our time together this year drawing up a game plan for next year's planting, OK, October? And every time I put on my super-soft-and-warm sweater coat, I will consider it a hug from you.
Lots of love, Erin
Megan- GORGEOUS! And Joy, as
By Lissa Rankin on Monday, 10/05/2009 at 7:58 AMMegan- GORGEOUS! And Joy, as always- thank you for the flow of inspiration that courses through your pen. And Christa, girlfriend- you inspired this, with your creative idea and beautiful words. THANK YOU!
Megan- GORGEOUS! And Joy, as
By Lissa Rankin on Monday, 10/05/2009 at 7:58 AMMegan- GORGEOUS! And Joy, as always- thank you for the flow in inspiration that courses through your pen. And Christa, girlfriend- you inspired this, with your creative idea and beautiful words. THANK YOU!
Love your gorgeous words,
By Joy Mazzola on Monday, 10/05/2009 at 7:57 AMLove your gorgeous words, Lissa and Megan. These letters FEEL Octobery somehow ... settled, brilliantly beautiful, accepting and ... cool. Full of surrender and presence. Thank you both for being who you are.
Oh my - I am stunned into
By Christa Avampato (not verified) on Monday, 10/05/2009 at 7:49 AMOh my - I am stunned into silence. These letters are so beautiful, so poignant, to heart-felt that I am tearing up in my tiny grey work cubicle. You've brought a lot of sunshine my way in this community of strong and beautiful women. I am blessed to be among you. Thank you a million times over for such a wonderful honor.
Hugs, Christa
I am excited that you brought
By Megan Monique Harner on Monday, 10/05/2009 at 7:38 AMI am excited that you brought Christa's October love letter concept to Owning Pink's main pages. So often when I was growing up October reminded me how beautiful the world is. Now that I am more in tuned with myself and my surroundings I realize how important October is for my growth and reflection.
Dear October,
Thank you for blessing us with your beauty, yet again. The start of your month is symbolic for me. It brings forth thoughts of growth, expansion, love and compassion. The cool air that feels the atmosphere comforts my anxieties and hugs me in a blanket of acceptance. October, I give you my heart, my mind, body and spirit. I surrender to you, my thoughts, my emotions, my dreams. May this month bring a wave of courage, understanding and trust. In you I will find peace and calm weather. In you, I will grow.
Love, Megan