With the endless commercials for depression medications, constant talk of finding our true joy and passion in life, and the ever-so-challenging search for our Mojo, it is easy to get lost in a whirlwind of questions like, "Why am I not happy?" "How do I get to where they are?" and "What is wrong with me?"
This past week was an emotional roller coaster for me. Mind you, I have nothing to really be sad about -- food is in my belly, I have friends that love me, a fantastic job and a promising future. But for some reason, I just couldn’t pull myself out of this feeling of sadness that overcame me.
So, all week long, I sat with it. I asked my sadness questions:
The sadness never really answered me back, but my subconscious did. The inner Goddess was whispering, "It’s alright little Pinkie, your body needed this sadness to know it is still alive and is growing and expanding as we speak. This too shall pass." In the midst of listening to my inner Goddess, I was able to be in the sadness. Although I didn’t understand what had come over me, I was able to accept the fact that the sadness was there, let it do what it needed to, and eventually leave. I like to imagine that the sadness was the water fertilizing the soil of my soul. (Not so sad anymore, is it?)
Don’t get me wrong Pinkies, in no way am I belittling depression or loss of Mojo -- those are both very real, very different, very valid things. However, we are merely humans trying to get by on a daily basis, live our dreams, find our joy, and have loving, authentic connections with one another. We are all going to have our down days, our down weeks and sometimes, yes, our down months. The important thing to keep in mind is that nothing lasts forever, and as sure as there are bumps in the road, there are just as many straightaways.
The next time you feel the sadness coming over you, don’t be afraid of it- embrace it. There are no coincidences in life -- each encounter, emotion, and interaction that comes into play is helping to create our "Big Picture" into existence. We cannot always see what lies ahead, but rest assured, the Universe will not steer us wrong.
Let It Be,
Megan Monique
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Dito to everything you have
By Deborah Beaulieu (not verified) on Wednesday, 04/21/2010 at 10:43 PMDito to everything you have so gently and eloquently pointed out to this girl friend! We must experience sadness to fully enjoy and appreciate the joy of discovering our Universe and our Pink!
Just so much wisdom in every word spoken to me from the Hearts and Souls of My Sister and Brothers of the Owning Pink Tribe.
Love you all so much for your support, wisdom, and encouraging words!
Feeling it,loving it, and changin it till the day I am released and returned to the Big Beautiful Universe!
Let it Be!
Debbie.
Jenn! SO TRUE! Sometimes we
By Megan Monique Harner on Monday, 11/16/2009 at 9:09 AMJenn! SO TRUE! Sometimes we forget to take into account that following God's plan and following our heart does not translate into 'easy work.' Sometimes it is hard, it is emotional and it will still be worth it, even more so.
Keeping open ears and an open heart.
fantastic news Lissa, getting
By Jenn (not verified) on Monday, 11/16/2009 at 8:11 AMfantastic news Lissa, getting what we ask for sometimes upsets our apple cart of emotional expectation I guess you deserve the best! your book will be amazing, can't wait to read it. jenn
You are welcome Emily. That
By Megan Monique Harner on Friday, 11/13/2009 at 8:22 AMYou are welcome Emily. That is the most important thing to remember, you are NOT alone. ESPECIALLY not in the Pinkdom :)
beautiful and inspirational.
By Emily (not verified) on Friday, 11/13/2009 at 7:06 AMbeautiful and inspirational. thank you for sharing your truth megan! what a great thing to do with your sadness, and to share with us so we can try it too, and also to know we are not alone.
Congrats Lissa - that is
By Kim (not verified) on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 2:00 PMCongrats Lissa - that is awesome news!
Lissa, Hold on tight, you
By Megan Monique Harner on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 1:54 PMLissa, Hold on tight, you are in for the ride of your life! So glad to be a witness of your miracles. XO
Christa, girlfriend- we are
By Lissa Rankin on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 1:52 PMChrista, girlfriend- we are here for you. I know circumstances have been threatening to rob you of your mojo- but you've got it, girlfriend. You are ever-resilient, and we are so blessed to have you with us. Giggle on, girl.
God, it's been such a rollercoaster of a week. Today, after a morning of profound sadness, I got some flippin', kick-ass rock star news! Dr. Christiane Northrup is going to write the foreword of my book. YIPPEEEE!!!!WHEE!!!! This was my fantasy too big to even dream, and SHE SAID YES. AHHH!!!!!!!
And yet, I still sit in sadness. And I'm confused. I guess, sometimes, we're just supposed to live with what is, without judging it, making it wrong, or trying to change it. Being with what is, Lissa
Glad that mantra made a
By Megan Monique Harner on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 1:43 PMGlad that mantra made a difference for you! I can feel your Mojo coming back already.
Megan - thank you. I like
By Christa (not verified) on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 1:40 PMMegan - thank you. I like that.
Universe, hear me out. I am joyful, I am abundant, I well and free.
That was the perfect thing for me to read after finishing my verbal smack down of "the two Jims", both died by suicide (long stories). Nothing like yelling at dead guys. How freeing! They don't talk back. They are forced to listen. I also have it on good authority that they have the ability to send good mojo from the other side. I told them to SEND IT, don't delay! The bastards owe me...that's how I'm seeing it. Anger, anger helps.
I'm going to print out this mantra and post it clearly in my world view. THANKS!!!!! :-)
Christa, I offer you this
By Megan Monique Harner on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 1:22 PMChrista, I offer you this mantra:
Universe, hear me out. I am joyful, I am abundant, I well and free.
Try it out and see how you like. Something that helps me work through sadness is visualizing. Since the Universe works on the Law of Attraction if we visualize our happiness and truly feel the emotion while visualizing it is drawn to us 3 fold. At least that is my experience.
We are here for you Christa, through your turbulence.
Alice, it seems that sadness
By Megan Monique Harner on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 1:19 PMAlice, it seems that sadness has come over lots of us Pinkies this week/month. Being in sadness is not easy, ever. But having the strength and patience to stick through it developing.
We love you Alice!
I've hit bumps and then I've
By Christa (not verified) on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 12:26 PMI've hit bumps and then I've hit pot holes. The karma gods have been bitch slapping me lately but I know "this too shall pass". It always does.
As a matter of fact I just sent an email to Lissa and a bunch of other friends this morning letting them know why I have not been in touch.
I am tired of talking, tired of sharing, tired of pulling it all apart and looking for meaning.
Perhaps there is no meaning at all!
For me I want less talk, more action. Less bitch, more cake! Less dark, more light. Less suicide, more laughter.
I don't want to sit in sadness. I prefer to swim away from it, drink a martini and laugh my ass off.
God, JABA, Capt'n Crunch - can you hear me?
CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?
I, too, am in a sad place
By Alice (not verified) on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 11:07 AMI, too, am in a sad place this week, working on meditating through it and asking for angelic assistance to let go of things I've been holding onto and struggling against strong desires to try to get back things I have been told I need to release. Feelings of loss are nagging at me and I'm working through it slowly. The support and love of the Pink community here has been so helpful, helping me realize I'm not alone, but supported and cradled by many who love me.
I am so grateful for this support, and for the opportunity to offer the same to those who need it too.
Love and light, gratitude and blessings to all of us. Alice
I can definitely feel that
By Megan Monique Harner on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 10:15 AMI can definitely feel that magic Lissa.
Something you said resonated with me Kim, that you are never satisfied with where you are. I think you should replace the word sadness in this post with 'dissatisfaction.'
This is all part of being human. If you were satisfied with where you were 90% of the time there would be no encouragement for growth. Take your satisfaction from knowing that you are working towards something miraculous and roll around in it!
Lots of love to you Kim.
What amazes me, Pinkies- is
By Lissa Rankin on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 9:52 AMWhat amazes me, Pinkies- is that we can share these moments- not just of joyous revelation but of profound sadness- and hold the space for each other, even though most of us have never met. Bringing your true self to the table allows us to build this gigantic net of love that cradles us as we feel these moments of sadness. When we don't feel isolated, disconnected, and alone, we're allowed to just feel sadness- which is way less scary than sadness plus isolation.
Do you see what we're doing here? Do you feel the magic? WOW is right, Kim.
I really over use the word
By Kim Jenkins (not verified) on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 9:45 AMI really over use the word WOW....but...WOW anyway. I love this post. I love the honesty and the raw pain of your words. Are we all feeling that uncertainty and sadness this week? Maybe, maybe not...but my goodness it feels so good to know we are human and feeling similar emotions together. In times like these, I am grateful for the people I have met who can help me understand there is nothing wrong with being sad...with feeling uncertain. I love you for your honesty Megan. I appreciate it because your words help connect so many of us that need/want the connections. And together we will keep finding our joy and getting to where we want to be. Even if that place is only temporary before moving on to the next place. Cuz quite frankly, I can't ever see myself feeling satisfied with where I am. And perhaps that is the true conflict within. I don't know. What I do know is it helps to discuss it with like minds. You should all be wearing a tiara for you are all Goddesses. Thank you that we are all in this together....connected, even tho the distance separates us. I have rambled on enough. <3 Kim
Thank you girlfriends! I know
By Lissa Rankin on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 9:03 AMThank you girlfriends! I know my sisters (and Pink God brothers) have got my back. You have no idea how much that means to me. Feelin' it, Lissa
Kim, Amen to that, sitting
By Megan Monique Harner on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 7:55 AMKim,
Amen to that, sitting with your emotions is a good way to work through them instead of pushing them away. But it is just as important take a step forward as well.
Lots of Love to You, Megan
Lissa, thank you for the
By Megan Monique Harner on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 7:54 AMLissa, thank you for the beautiful introduction. I am so glad that my writing can resonate with you today and help you through process of letting go. It isn't always easy (as we all know) listening to the Universe and following through with it's wishes or direction, but in the end, we understand.
We Love You and believe me when I say, 'We got yo back sista!'
Megan, you are, indeed, wise
By Kim (not verified) on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 7:37 AMMegan, you are, indeed, wise beyond your years. Your assessment of how to handle the sadness that at times pervades and overwhelms us is right on the money. We need to feel it - to embrace it even and let it completely consume us (for a time). Of course, it is always our choice as to how we want to deal with it. But it does serve a purpose and if we let it in, it will leave and we are free once again. If we choose not to deal with it, that's just fine too; however, it will return at another time and on another day, until we are ready and decide to open up and accept it for what it is - yet another experience in which we can learn.
Pinkie Hugs, Kim Wencl
Dearest Megan, That you wrote
By Lissa Rankin on Thursday, 11/12/2009 at 7:15 AMDearest Megan, That you wrote this now is no accident. You are my Mojo Mentor today. I've been crying for two days because the signs from the Universe are telling things I don't want to hear. The whispers have been there for months, but I have been ignoring the signs, so this week, the Universe started blaring LOUDLY, clanging symbols and banging drums to make sure I notice. I HEAR YOU! And I will listen. But in the listening there is an action required that I don't want to do. And it makes me very sad. (I will share with you Pinkies soon- but I need to make some moves first).
So I am sitting with the sadness, feeling blessed that I don't have to do it alone- that the loving kindness and support of all you Pinkies is here with me on my journey, and that no one of us is alone.
Love you Megan. Letting it be, Lissa