Embracing Uncertainty

I sat down this evening to get some writing done. Uncertain about what would spill out onto my blank canvas, I decided to look through some old pictures on my computer and reorganize them. As I went through each folder of old boyfriends, friends and familiar but distant places, it became clear to me that the transition stage I am in right now is no different than where I was at just a couple of years ago.

Yes I am in a new city, have new friends, a different boyfriend, and my outlook on life and its events has been tweaked and matured a bit. But the emotions I am experiencing - the uncertainty, and being scared to move forward into the unknown – are just the same. This really got me thinking.

Moving out of the space I am in, detaching myself from what is comfortable and familiar, is difficult. Questions arise in my mind: am I leaving something that I will never find again? Am I making the wrong choice? Will I be happy in the new circumstances? And of course the familiar phrase, “the grass isn’t always greener on the other side” is stuck in my head as well, swirling around me like a black hole waiting to suck me in.

On the other hand, what will it cost me to stay where I am cozy and push aside this strong inner craving for more than I have right now? Am I selfish for wanting more, when I already have it so good? When I am old and grey, will I look back on this moment and wish that I had just taken the chance to discover a new world of adventure?

To Each Our Own

Every step we take - every thought, every action, every word - is a new beginning for us. There is no wrong choice, just different ones. We have but one chance to live in this space and in this time, how selfish would we be if we didn’t make the most of it and push ourselves to our limits, if only to find out what they are?

I can remember leaving my previous situations. Trying to explain why I was leaving and endeavoring to make other people understand was perhaps the worst part of the experience. This is a battle I refuse to fight again. The truth is that we each walk our own paths and live in our own shoes. Only we can comprehend what it is that we are going through, and where our own hearts are leading us.

Gratefully accept support from those who offer it, and for those who don’t, well, just remember that while it may hurt not have the support of our loved ones, it is not necessary to move forward. You might consider asking why it is so important that you have their approval, how is it serving you (it might not be at all).

So What Now?

What matters most is that you are comfortable with you choices, with your path and with your actions. There are no other Pinkies that are in your body on a daily, moment-to-moment basis. Our inner Pink Gods/Goddesses whisper into our ears for only us to hear. We just have to listen and choose to act.

As I embark on this next journey, I will remember that I am following my heart each step of the way. The adventure is worth the physical and emotional challenges. I will come out stronger on the other side, and this too shall pass.


What Action Will You Take?

Embracing change and uncertainty can be a scary, uncomfortable process. It is important that we move forward with our goals and desires before they fade away and move out of our reach. The Universe does indeed conspire in our favor, but it can only send us the life raft - we must be the ones to reach for it. Moving forward does not mean that you have to justify your actions to anyone or yourself - in fact, I discourage it. Often when we are explaining to others and ourselves we end up belittling our current stage of life. This is unnecessary. There is nothing wrong with where you are - in fact, it is key in moving you toward to where you are going. Love where you are, and focus on where you want to go.

Where are you stuck Pinkies? Is there something your inner God or Goddess has been whispering in your ear, luring you to dive in and explore the unknown? Why have you not taken that leap? What is stopping you? Are you conditioning your goals and dreams to the critics around you? Embrace the life you love and go with it- in reality, this is just a game.

Ever-changing, ever-loving,
Megan