Three months ago, I decided my dream life would be to travel the United States, seeing new places, people, and things and taking in all the different lifestyles along the way. Seeing as how I work for Owning Pink (from my computer) and have relationships with men and women all over the country (or world, for that matter,) through the Online Pink Community, I had the resources and means to do just that. On February 16, 2010 I took off on The Magical Eyes Tour leaving Dallas, Texas and heading toward Northern California- mapping it out as I went; living my dream life.
It has been a little over a month since my departure from Dallas. I have visited El Paso, Texas, driven through New Mexico, made stops in Buckeye, Phoenix and Scottsdale Arizona. I drove through Palm SpringsCalifornia only to arrive in the lovely home of Kim Jenkins in Corona, California. From there I made my way up the west coast to Berkeley, then MuirBeach and now Tiburon California- such beauty and adventure I have experienced. Now that I am here, away from my home, visiting these people and places I have found myself longing for something I once had- a home.
I looked around this past week, after reading one of Lissa’s posts, and thought, “my dream life would really look quite different then what I thought it would several months ago.” After reassessing what my values are, where my passions lie and what would really make me happy, I created a new idea of my current dream life would look like. I would have a house back in Dallas with Brawn (my BF.) I would spend time with my friends and family that are close. I would travel for 1-2 weeks out of the month, continuing The Magical Eyes Tour and my adventures of seeing new places and things, but having a home base to return to and traveling
by plane versus car. I would have it all- “why not? Isn’t that why we are here?” I thought.
I found myself living in a state of mind that was screaming, “when I move back to Ennis, have my house, get settled in, and start traveling again, THEN and only then will I be living my dream life.” In that moment I stopped and something (most likely The Universe) slapped me in the face. It was less than 3 months ago that my dream life consisted of me getting in my car, taking off and venturing into the unknown. Now that my concept has shifted I must WAIT until I achieve those things in order to be happy?!
The truth of the matter is that even when I do get back to Ennis, have my home, Brawn in my arms and are surrounded by friends and family I will still have something else in my life that I am working towards accomplishing, learning and achieving. So long as I continue to be committed to my personal growth and mission to serve others, I will never be at a stopping point. Being happy with what we have now, in this moment is where our fulfillment lies. Our minds and circumstances are constantly changing- that will never stop. Be present, be grateful but don’t stop creating.
The only time we have is now. I am living my dream life right now, in this very moment. Being in Tiburon California is what I dreamed of a few months ago and I am here, soaking up the sun, taking in the beauty, meeting wonderful new Pinkies along the way. The life I am living today is indeed the life of my dreams. I am here, now and that is all I have.
Look around- have you been constantly working towards that one day when you will happy? Will it be when you finally get the promotion, buy your first home, lost those 10 lbs. or meet that right person? Stop exhausting yourself. Those things will be great when they happen, but right now is what you have and chances are, several years ago, where you are right now is what you were working towards and hoping for. Give yourself a break and celebrate!
Please join us here and celebrate all of things that make our lives wonderful RIGHT NOW.
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