The clock was dangerously nearing 12:30pm. Tummies were grumbling. Butts were getting sore from sitting too long. Blood sugar levels were dipping.
My talk, Money: A Love Story, was supposed to end the morning session. But the audience’s (and my own) need for a break were obvious.
So I whispered to the organizer:
“I don’t have to speak today. Let’s just take me off the agenda so we can stay on schedule, or at least I’ll just speak for 5 minutes instead of 30.”
It seemed logical. We were running over. There was too much information to cover in too little time. I would just take myself out and make it easier for everyone. Done and done.
During the lunch break I felt a tap on my shoulder. It was the headlining speaker, who’d flown in from Florida to share his expertise with the group.
“Kate, I heard you asked to be removed from the program or to only speak for 5 minutes. There are people who have driven here to this event to hear you and what you have to say. You will speak for your full time because what you have to share is important.”
The familiar feeling of tears pooling atop my bottom eyelids was there. It was one of those moments of great recognition.
My topic that day was about the importance of valuing ourselves in order to make more money and become a better money manager. Money is all about what we value, and we have to start with ourselves.
Yet, in asking to be removed from the program, I had slipped into an old pattern of undervaluing my own contribution. I was throwing myself under the bus, once again. (We really do teach what we need to learn.)
Sometimes being conscientious of time, resources, and others’ needs is a way of covering up the fact that we don’t value ourselves enough.
I’m so grateful the gentleman I was sharing the stage with that day said something to me to remind me to honor my contribution.
In the end, I gave my full 30-minute talk and many people came up to me and told me that it was exactly what they needed to hear that day.
So . . .
Grab the mic.
Take your time.
Take up space.
Turn up your volume.
Stand up tall.
Sing loud and proud.
Shake what your mama gave you.
And keep yourself on the program.
Do you ever find yourself trying to not take up too much space or keeping your mouth shut? I’d love to hear your stories and thoughts in the comments!
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