I don’t know how you feel.
I can only remember how I felt when it happened to me.
And it sucked.
I’m not going to tell you to feel better because it’s not time for “better” - yet.
Perhaps such a statement elicits a sigh of relief, a ping of anxiety, or maybe you’re totally appalled.
Either way: Stay with it. Root yourself there.
Here’s the thing…
Despite the universality of loss + pain, we know very little about recovery from it and, oddly, the acceptance of it. Navigating through soul-aching emotional remorse is a misunderstood process that most of us have very little idea how to respond to.
“Don’t feel bad.”
“You just need to keep busy.”
“Time heals all wounds.”
“Pull yourself up by the bootstraps.”
Seriously, no rush. Take a minute right where you are.
Truth: most of the condolences you hear after you’ve been struck by life are rational + intellectual but emotionally void. How often have you heard “don’t feel bad,” when the relationship ended, the doctor had negative news, the lay off finally happened or the car broke down – again?
“Don’t feel bad” is dismissive. It is unintentional but it diminishes your own, your lover’s, friend’s, family’s appropriate, valid emotions.
Being infused with sadness is all about a broken heart, not a broken mind.
This one you’ll have to feel your way through.
Loss monumentally shifts everything in your life. Enough so that you + others will want to apply “smarts” to push through those cataclysmic feelings in a jiffy.
Over-intellectualizing your pain (or anyone else’s for that matter) is a type of avoidance. The loss is too unnerving, too uncomfortable - so you bury it under a flurry of distractions + quick dismissals. Over time this unresolved pain is cumulative and will resurface with the sole task of dismantling you.
Don’t fall prey to the ol’ adage “time heals all wounds.” It’s what you do with that time that helps you heal. Repair. Choose a new approach. Choose completion rather than avoidance.
Here’s the doosy of ‘em all. When you give yourself and others permission to be upset, you pave the path to steadfast “completion.” You recognize you have the right to feel upset from time to time no matter how loved ones react.
You understand the pain of the loss/change will sting LESS in the long-run when you embrace it’s “ok-ness.” in the short-run.
Maybe the relationship was mostly rewarding.
Maybe you spent a portion of it mascara streaked + curled up in a ball crying.
Or perhaps it was problematic from the get-go.
Regardless, when it ends, you are left reaching out for someone who used to be there OR who has never been there + still isn’t.
It can feel shitty.
So feel lousy + as you begin to recover, you can start sorting through what worked and what didn’t in the relationship. But what if weeks go by, then months, and you still feel as if you’re wandering around in a thick grey fog? Have you stumbled into the black hole of grief never to return?
Give it about six to nine months. It often takes that long after a serious relationship for you to pick up the pieces and start rebuilding your sense of self.
Whether it be a romantic relationship, family, friends, health, finances – there are very few vistas that grief will not infest. When it does:
Steal the courage to allow the pain to surface.
Be there with it.
Then commit to letting it go.
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