Good day and Happy Saturday Posse Party to YOU! Welcome Natalie, first time Pink Stage presenter! Though Natalie's presence maybe new to you here on the website, her beaming smile of light and creativity is welcomed often in our community (thanks Universe!). Natalie comes to us all the way from Australia (and soon, Sweden!). Please open your hearts and your mind to the beauty that she is here to share with the world. -- Megan Monique

In my own posts and in others I've recently seen in the Pink Posse Blog, I'm noticing the theme of letting go. Astrologically speaking, this theme makes a lot of sense because of the transits that are occurring (I've been doing a lot of reading on this and it was also mentioned in one of Sandra's blog posts!). I feel compelled to share my next step in letting go, which also comes with the knowledge that this release is allowing something else to grow.

Arachne

I bought my drum kit, Arachne, in November 2007 (named because, through studying shamanism, I discovered one of my totem animals is a spider). She's been with me through a lot: a major break-up, several moves, my trip overseas (though she stayed behind for that), and now my upcoming move to Sweden. Anywhere I've been, she's been with me. She has been a constant source of comfort for whenever I was feeling depressed, frazzled, angry, alone, or even simply happy. Whenever I played her, I would always walk away feeling better -- even if I was still struggling with grasping a beat. I'd play her while crying and feel overwhelmed with a sensation of love and connection through the creative release she allowed me. A closer connection to my creative center. The feeling of achieving new levels of skill, playing songs I once dreamed of playing along to... She helped me build stronger sense of inner-strength and independence.

As I filter through my belongings for my upcoming move out of the country, I'm now faced with the dilemma of having to let her go -- as shipping her from Australia to Sweden is quite expensive and it would make more sense to buy a new kit over there. I loathe the thought of selling Arachne -- a large part of me is so attached to her. I hug her and kiss her and tell her I love her! And I do love my kit, she has given me so much... I've certainly learned through my time with her that wherever I am in this world, the one thing I know that I need with me is a set of drums!

One step in my journey

What I'm forced to remember is that Arachne was one step along many more to come in my journey as a drummer. She was my first kit and I knew when I bought her that a time would come when she would be replaced. It seems this time is now. She has been with me through so much and as I embark on a new phase of my life, perhaps it is time to let her go -- and to let this release further me to my next phase as a drummer.

Some belongings, when connected to such personal experiences, carry with them specific energies. While Arachne represents strength, she also reminds me of the struggles and pain that I was going through while owning her. That period of my life is now over; do I really need to carry that reminder with me?

I already had that power!

While it's true that Arachne helped me through a difficult period of my life, what I must acknowledge is that she is merely a vehicle through which those potentials in me expressed themselves. I already had that power, strength, and focus within me. Part of my fear in letting her go is that I won't immediately have a kit when I'm in Sweden -- but if the desire, need, drive and initiative to drum (plus a well-watched bank account) is within me, then this obstacle can be overcome. It's merely a debris on the path. Letting go of her is not letting go of that creative spark or of drumming itself; that drive lives inside of me.

What about you, Pinkies? What are you letting go of or moving on from? How do you hold space for such transitions in your life?

Looking forward to the creative sparks ahead,

Natalie