I have a thing for hummingbirds. I find them fascinating, beautiful, focused and determined. I find it utterly thrilling to actually experience the vibration of their wings reverberating throughout my body. The sound and the sensation of this tiny yet powerful creature moves me deeply.
While at the home of my parents, the gorgeous Crocosmia Lucifer flower bloomed in all of it's glorious orange-red. A buffet for hummingbirds had opened! On one particular day, I felt a sensation in my heart space and "hummingbird" popped into my mind. This happened twice and both times I ran to the window and both times there was a hummingbird feasting!
So, of course, the following day I wanted more. I was in a place of wanting -- wanting more visual experience, more hummingbird footage, wanting to make sure that I got my fill. And I kept going to the window, peeping and peering, lurking.
No hummingbirds. I casually noted that at no time during that day was I pulled to the window. At no time was there a sensation in my chest, no "hummingbird" popping into my mind. Yet, I kept running to the window because I didn't want to miss out. I wanted to make sure that I got what felt like enough.
What did pop into my head was "you're trying to hard". And I thought of how and where I do this in my life. Where I don't wait for the guidance. I'm just very aware of my wanting and I keep looking, keep allowing myself to be pulled away from what I'm doing to check it out "just in case". Even with the experience of being guided, still not trusting that I'll be guided again in perfect time for the next time. Realizing my own pushing, my own trying to make it happen, rather than just allowing for nature to call to me, or trusting that my connection to the nature world was strong enough, good enough.
How about you, Pinkies? Where in your life are you habitually running to the window, pulling yourself away from the moment because your mind is afraid that you'll miss out?
Can you allow your heart to guide you to the perfect timing, to what is "enough", to what will bring you joy instead of wasted energy? Do you understand the brilliance inherent Pinkness in this allowing?
Just so you know, after I finished writing this article, I resisted my own pushing and walked by the window and went to the backyard to swing in the hammock. And as I lay gazing at the sky, I noted . . . a hummingbird. He was flying fast and furious and smoke flew up as he put on his brakes to make a sharp left around the corner of the house and came to rest briefly in a tree just 12 feet away.
As I noted the irony, I smiled as I heard the Spirit laughing, See?!
Hugs to your Powerful Pink Self,
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