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Waiting and Becoming... Easier Said Than Done!

Megan Monique Harner's picture

Something has come over me. For months now I have been telling myself it will pass, but after this long, I cannot keep saying it. It would be a lie if I continued to act as though this space I am in is not part of who I am. If it weren’t, I wouldn’t be in it. Last week I wrote myself out of this space and referred to it as “the funk.” A day later I felt fine. However, I had an eerie sensation the funk would soon return.

Lissa wrote a post a while back called, "Waiting and Becoming." While I can completely relate to all that she shares, become inspired by the conclusion of her words, and attempt to be patient with myself in the process of waiting and becoming -- it does not make being here any easier!

Earlier this morning I had my first astrology chart reading from Jan. I didn’t know what to expect, what would come of it or how it would help me. But as some of us function, I felt I had to reach outside of myself to confirm what was going on within me. My assumptions proved to be correct.

The fog

As much as I hate the funk, I know it is necessary; all a part of the waiting and becoming. Jan spoke of my existence at this particular time and space as though I were walking through fog with my hands sticking out in front of me, hoping I don’t trip on anything and praying that I don’t fall into the gaping, black abyss.

Whether it be the funk or the fog in which I am currently sitting, it is clear to me that this part of my existence occurs so that I may better see what lies ahead when it arrives.

So, how am I going to make it through until the fog clears? Well, I am going to do what I felt I should have been doing all along: using my intuition, my connection with The Universe, and my inner guidance to go wherever my gut leads me. This is not a time of extreme practical logic (though the Virgo in me demands it be so!). This is a time to really tap into why I am here on this Earth with all of you people and how I might better serve my existence and yours.

Remove the ceiling of thought

I learned that when we let go of the concept that we are struggling and accept exactly where we are at for all that it is, there is great value to be gained. There is no wrong space to be, no space that cannot serve you in some way. It is only a matter of opening our hearts and minds to learning something in a way that didn’t seem possible before.

As Jan said, “You are going to have to take the ceiling off of your thoughts. Let go of how you think things should happen and be open to what is possible.

What is stopping you from accepting what is so in your life right now? If where you are at isn’t where you think you should be, what value is there is simply accepting what is so and moving with the current, releasing the struggle?

Breaking All the Rules,
Megan Monique

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Megan Monique Harner's picture

Thank you all

for your compliments and rockin' comments.

Donna's picture

Wow-

"I learned that when we let go of the concept that we are struggling and accept exactly where we are at for all that it is, there is great value to be gained."

Wow- I so was reading this this morning and boom, when I read the one part you wrote above, I had to stop, reread it and again, it felt wow-

What's stopping me right now, if my ownself- thinking I could do more...But to stop and consider that this is where I am supposed to be is profound for me. I seriously need to sit down and think more about this. Wow-

Thank you Megan!

Christa Avampato's picture

Not Waiting But Being

Hi Megan! I can totally relate to what you're saying. I think of it as all of us always being in a process of Being and Becoming rather than Waiting and Becoming. In truth, we're never waiting, never standing still. We may not always be where we want to be or feel the way we want to feel, but that's not a static state either. Even in the wait phase, we're still changing and growing.

Christa

Scott Sheperd's picture

The funk

No doubt about it. It really is tough. And you're right, there are no nice answers. And as you allude to in regards to Lissa's article, I also think it's interesting that if we're not careful, advice we get in groups like owning pink, as incredibly powerful and positive as it can be, can sometimes feel like part of the problem . It's really not the advice per se it's the whole process of support and how we look at it. We start reading all these posts about we are where we're supposed to be, waiting and becoming, becoming the butterfly, and we start wondering why are all these people so good at this and I suck at it.

I can't tell you how much I totally admire your honesty in this article and how much you inspire me by writing it. A lot of people don't want to share to their peers that they are struggling. Your honesty and courage are two of the ingredients that will be critical for you in this journey. You are right about easier said than done. Everything is easier said than done. Life is easier said than done. All the advice and comments and insights you get from others, as good as they might be are just words. Implementing is the tricky part.

There is a wonderful book called "The Theft of the Spirit" by Carl Hammerschlag. In it he relates a story where a man who is very discouraged says that he believes that the light at the end of the tunnel is just an illusion. Another man in the group says he finally learned that it's not the light at the end of the tunnel that is the illusion, it is the tunnel. I used to say this to patients I worked with in a hospital. "I can't feel exactly what you are feeling but I will get on the trail with you as best I can. And we will walk this trail together. Maybe we'll laugh once in a while, maybe cry and maybe get lost. But if I'm holding your hand, you're holding mine and we'll be together." I've always liked that image. I'm on the trail with you for whatever it's worth.

Megan Monique Harner's picture

Good to Know

You all are with me in learning to accept what is so in order to allow it to pass. Thanks for your support and love! XO

Keep On Truckin'
Megan

Kim's picture

The Funk Sucks!!

I'm so sorry Megan. It is all good and necessary and all of that, but it sure does suck. In my experience, there really isn't anything that is going to make it go away faster or become clearer other than learning or going through what you need to go thru. And honestly, that sucks!! I am seeing the light at the end after a long funk. I tried everything I could do for the longest time to get out of it, to stop it, to change it, and it all came down to what you said above - trust in yourself, trust in the universe, you are where you are supposed to be...work on getting thru. Sending mucho love and hugs your way:)

Pattie's picture

Funky Chicken

I too slip in and out of "the funk" I wish I had some magical words to help you but all I can say is it wont last forever.
I find trying to surround myself with people and things I love, that make me smile helps. It doesn't lift the funk but it helps distract me from it for a while, and get me through.
I'm still trying to open myself to the path that is for me, and I know you can do the same. You'll get through this and find what's right for you.

Laurie Erdman's picture

Funky

Easier said than done - truer words were never written. I entered a funk two weeks ago (interestingly on my birthday). I see glimpses of clarity about my true calling, but then fog descends. My creativity - the very thing I am unleashing - goes into hiding.

I'm not surprised. I am making major changes in my life. I am following my gut and my heart. I'm preparing to take huge risks. My head is resisting. At its worst, I consider turning back the clock. Turning and running back to the life that I lived for so long. But there is no going back. Patience and self-love is the only answer.

I'm reminded of a stone being bounced around in a tumbler. It goes in rough, dull and ordinary and comes out shiny and bright and beautiful. Being bounced around is part of the transformation process. If we try to protect ourselves from the bumps, it will take longer to transform.

In love and light,

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