Posts Tagged ‘gynecologist’

Pat Yourself On The Back For a Job Well Done

Tuesday, December 8th, 2009

successI just met two deadlines for two books in one week. The manuscript for What’s Up Down There? Questions You’d Only Ask Your Gynecologist If She Was Your Best Friend was due December 1, and the edits on the galleys for my other book Encaustic Art: The Complete Guide To Creating Fine Art With Wax was due December 3. And I did it, Pinkies! I almost ignored my family over Thanksgiving in order to meet my deadline, but that didn’t seem Pink at all, so I put it off and then worked my tail off to catch up. But I did it!

That night, I went out with my girls to celebrate me and my accomplishments! We ate sushi, watched the full moon from the hot tub, and celebrated. Not only did I meet my deadline, but Dr. Christiane Northrup agreed to write the foreword for my gynecology book. WOO HOO! (A dream come true for me, Pinkies!) I am still reeling- and feeling the relief spread all through my body.

How often do you celebrate YOU? Think back though all of your accomplishments. How often have you taken the time to honor yourself and celebrate your success with those you love? Why is it that we readily share our worries, troubles, and woes while we squirrel away our successes as though they’re reasons to feel ashamed? What if we brought accomplishments out the closet and let the light of glory shine down upon them? What if we could honor them here, rather than hiding them?

I’ve often felt shy about my successes. While you’re sure to get girlfriend support when you’re in the midst of a divorce, who do you tell when four publishers are fighting over your book? Success may trigger people’s own insecurities. It’s not that they’re not happy for you, but your success may shine the light on what they consider their failures. Instead of jumping for joy, you may find that others try to diminish you. They simply can’t handle the light you radiate.

I used to feel hurt by this. Why should I dim my own light just to be accepted? Not that I want to be arrogant, but why can’t I celebrate my successes as vibrantly as I share my frustrations, fears, and failures? I’ve learned to keep quiet, to tone down my dial, and to make an effort to make others feel better.

But why? Why do we do this to each other? Why can’t we be expansive enough to feel another Pinkie’s joy without taking it personally? If you have good news, I want to hear it, Pinkies! I want you to write about how you’ve fallen in love, how you’ve found your dream job, how you’ve been selected for the top notch art show, how you found a literary agent, how your kid just wrote you a love letter, or how your boss just wrote a glowing review about you.  Why are we so hesitant to share the good? I promise, I won’t see it as self-promoting or arrogant. I will see it as a well-deserved revelry for the value that lies within you.

I am trying to keep this in mind as I face certain successes lately. I’m tempted to hide my good news, for fear that it will make you resent me (this is my wound in life, so I’m sensitive about it). But Owning Pink is all about telling the truth, being authentic, and spreading love throughout our community and sharing what’s real- the bad AND the good. Let’s set an example. Let’s make it okay to tell the truth, whatever the truth holds.

Let’s shake up the Pink Posse forum and invite all of us to not just share our trials, but to celebrate our triumphs. Let’s light fireworks and do a little dance when any one of us has a breakthrough.

But first, it all comes back to YOU. Do you honor yourself when good things happen? Do you throw your arms in the air and spin in circles while whooping it up with glee?  Do you believe that your good news is OUR good news? I do…

Believing and dying to dance in your light,

Lissa

New Pap Smear Guidelines & Why The Holistic Health of Women is in Jeopardy

Friday, November 20th, 2009

docpatientGood morning, Pinkies.  I just heard the news (calm down, Lissa. Breathe…) In the wake of the U.S. Preventative Services Task Force’s new guidelines for mammography screening, the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists just announced new recommendations that cut back on Pap smear screening. My blood is boiling, Pinkies. WHAT IS GOING ON? Why are we recommending cutting back on women’s health screening? Don’t get me started (yet). Let me fill you in on the news.

New Pap Smear Guidelines:

  1. Instead of recommending that Pap smear screening begin after you’re sexually active, new guidelines say that even a sexually active 13 year old should wait until 21 for her first Pap.
  2. After 21, Pap smears are recommended every 1-2 years until age 30.
  3. After 30, if you’ve had three consecutively normal Pap smears with no history of a seriously abnormal Pap, new guidelines say you only need to do Paps every three years.
  4. If you’ve total hysterectomy for benign reasons, new guidelines say you can skip Paps altogether.
  5. New guidelines recommend quitting Paps sometime between 65-70 if you’ve had three consecutively normal Paps with no abnormal Paps in the past 10 years.

Why the Change?

There is evidence to support the changes.  The truth is that you’re unlikely to go from having a normal Pap smear to having cervical cancer in 3 years, even if you contract HPV. Because cervical cancer grows slowly, it’s still likely to be precancerous by the time it gets picked up. And yearly screening does increase the number of procedures performed, and some of those procedures- such as cryotherapy and LEEP procedure can affect fertility and pregnancy in rare cases.  Plus, cutting back on Pap smears saves precious health care dollars. And if we’re not saving lots of lives and potentially causing harm by implementing procedures that may not be necessary, why do annual Pap smears?

So these guidelines aren’t positively ludicrous like the new mammogram guidelines that threaten to kill hundreds of thousands of women. I understand why they’re recommending pushing back the age of first Pap smear.  HPV, the virus that causes cervical cancer and abnormal Pap smears, is almost ubiquitous among teens. As such, doing Paps will lead to many abnormal results and require colposocopies, biopsies, and possibly treatment such as LEEP procedures, which can affect their pregnancies in the future, leading to scarred cervixes and preterm labor. And many of those abnormalities, if left untreated, would have resolved themselves without treatment.

I can also see why they’ve said that women who have had a hysterectomy can stop getting Paps. After all, they don’t have a cervix. And while there may be scant cervical cells left at the surgical scar inside the vagina, the risk of cervical cancer is exceedingly low.

BUT (and this is a gigantic BUT) there is a GINORMOUS problem here that carries far-reaching consequences for women’s health, and I can’t keep this quiet. Though women come to the gynecologist under the guise of their annual Pap smear, they actually come for WAY more than that.

Here are some examples of issues I handle under the guise of an annual Pap smear exam:

  • Sexual problems that threaten your relationship
  • Debilitating depression and anxiety
  • Chronic fatigue that prevents you from living vitally
  • Pelvic pain, often as the result of sexual abuse you have never confessed to anyone until I hold the sacred space for you and invite you to tell the truth
  • Urinary incontinence that causes so much shame and embarrassment that you might not leave the house, much less exercise or pursue your dreams
  • Menstrual disorders like hemorrhaging or menstrual cramps that cause you to miss work and other important life functions.
  • PMS/PMDD that may be hampering a happy life
  • Interstitial cystitis symptoms that make you feel like you constantly have a UTI
  • Menopausal symptoms that threaten a woman’s relationships, sleep, work, and life
  • Relationship counseling
  • Parenting advice
  • Losing your mojo

And that doesn’t even include the oh-so-necessary annual breast exam, internal pelvic exam to check for ovarian tumors and such, and the opportunity to make sure a woman is up to date on other cancer prevention procedures, such as colonoscopy in older women, or the HPV vaccine for teens.

Now, ACOG does say you should still talk to your doctor about getting an annual pelvic exam. (Thank you ACOG.)  But are insurance companies going to cover a routine pelvic exam in the absence of a Pap smear?  Are women going to go? So many women will hear these new guidelines and think, “Cool! I can skip the gyno for 3 years!”

By changing its guidelines, ACOG is going against the other main authorities on cervical cancer. The American Cancer Society and the U. S. Preventative Services Task Force both recommend that women get their first Pap test within three years of having sex, or at age 21- whichever comes first.

I respect evidence-based medicine and understand the rationale for these guidelines. I went to Duke and Northwestern and learned all the ivory tower beliefs about  practicing based on evidence, not anecdotal speculation or emotion-based care.  BUT….

What Do I Think?

Hmmm…I guess I think all the guidelines that have come out this week are missing something critically important in medicine.   As leaders in women’s health, what messages are we putting out there? Somewhere along the way, governing bodies in medicine have forgotten the most vital aspect of what we doctors do. When they are reviewing data to make these guidelines, they are focusing only on what “cures” someone. But they have forgotten that there is a difference between healing and curing.

Let’s take a huge leap and assume that cancer screening is completely worthless and doesn’t prevent cancer at all. Is there not some value to the other types of healing work we doctors provide under the pretext of the annual Pap smear? Women don’t make separate appointments to talk about their sex life or whether they’re living as vitally as they might.  They lump those things under the umbrella of a Pap smear.  Many women feel like they’ve been handed a “You’re worthless” card at birth.  I try to extract that card and replace it with a hot pink one that says, “You’re lovable, valuable, beautiful, and worthy.” This kind of work cannot be proven in a scientific study. But is taking away a woman’s excuse to visit her gynecologist taking away that hot pink card as well?

I’m not suggesting we do unnecessary testing or procedures just for the sake of getting a woman in the door. Ultimately, you have to be your own advocate for your health and wellness. But I worry about the far-reaching effects these kinds of guidelines will have for women who misunderstand and fail to hear the part about annual exams still being a critical part of women’s wellness.  What if they get lost in the system? Especially underprivileged women, who may not be educated enough to advocate for their own well-being.

My fear is that cutting back on cancer screening will not only increase a woman’s risk of cancer. It may also limit a woman’s access to the kind of healing good doctors can provide.  For most of my young patients, I am their primary care provider.  The Pap smear is what gets them in the door.  If you hear that you only need a Pap smear every three years, you may go three years without anyone talking to you about whether you’re living as healthfully and joyfully as you possibly can.

And you can be sure that insurance will cut back your coverage. If ACOG says you don’t need a Pap smear, your visit will likely only get covered if you have an ICD-9 code diagnosis like endometriosis or fibroids. And let me tell you- there’s no ICD-9 diagnosis for losing your mojo or cancer prevention.

You may think I’m biased. After all, I’m a gynecologist. It’s my business to have people come in for Pap smears, so of course, I would oppose these new guidelines. But the truth is that most gynecologists lose money by doing a Pap smear. The cost of the visit exceeds what insurance companies will reimburse most of the time. And since Medicare already doesn’t cover annual Paps, we usually eat the cost for older women who want to get Pap smears but don’t have coverage. So trust me, for most gynecologists, this is not about money.  One of my dear friends in San Francisco (a total Pink God) is closing his practice- declaring bankruptcy- because he simply can’t make ends meet with a busy insurance-based practice. It breaks my heart. He is one of those doctors who, like me, practices love, with medicine on the side.  Why does the system not embrace him? Why have we replaced doctors like him with technology, scientific data, and task forces? (*crying now*)

And why are they cutting back on only women’s health screening? Why not PSA testing for men? Not to be all conspiracy-theorist on you, but you can’t convince me that there aren’t some sexual politics caught up in all this. With all the advances we’ve made in women’s rights and women’s health over the years, why are we going backwards? Won’t somebody please stand up and shine the light on the Emperor’s new clothes?

I get that we need to cut back on health care costs. But come on, people. Must we do it at the expense of women? Can’t we focus our energy on tort reform or capping profits for insurance companies. Is this really the way?

For me, it’s all about advocating for holistic women’s health- the big kind, the kind that looks at a whole human being, not just a breast or a cervix. The only way we can help women holistically is to get them into our offices, provide a safe, sacred space for healing, and show up- fully present- to help them get in touch with what their body needs to be whole.

What Will I Do In My Practice?
I think you should be given a choice. The way I see it, it’s my job to present the data and help you understand the risks and benefits of cancer screening. If you want to get a yearly Pap smear and mammograms after 40- Fine. If you’d prefer to stretch out your screening or skip it altogether, no problem. It’s your body- your choice. I’m just here to help you understand your options and deal with whatever comes up.

The Bottom Line
Please, Pinkies, regardless of what you decide to do about your Pap smear or your mammogram, please don’t stop seeing a doctor every year.

Our Broken System

Thinking of how these new guidelines may limit your access to health care breaks my heart.

This system is so BROKEN. Hand me the suture and a needle driver. I want to stitch the fragmented, fractured, hemorrhaging heart of medicine back together again.sutured heart

Waiting, with hand outstretched- “Suture, please,”

Lissa

Let’s Talk about Coochies & Boobs

Monday, August 17th, 2009

pussyPlease, Pinkies, help me write my next book! I just signed a book deal with St. Martin’s Press to write a book addressing the secret vagina/ breast/ women’s health questions you’ve always wanted to have answered. The working title is Coochie Confidential: Questions You’d Only Ask Your Gynecologist If She Was Your Best Friend. Now I need to know your questions. Will you help? Pretty please?

Some sample questions women have already submitted:
Why do we have pubic hair?
Is there really a G Spot?
Is it true that some women ejaculate when they orgasm?
What’s the average length for a woman’s labia?
Do male gynecologists ever get turned on by their patients?
What’s it like to look at vaginas all day long?
Will my boobs shrink if I breastfeed?
What’s the craziest thing you’ve ever found in a vagina?
Why does my coochie smell like fish?
What is the most common labia size?
Why is sex so painful sometimes?
Why do we have hymens?
If I lose something in my vagina, what should I do?
Do old ladies get saggy vaginas?
I can’t have an orgasm during intercourse. Is this normal?
I have to get a hysterectomy. Will it make me less of a woman?

Nothing Is Off Limits

Own Your Body and get your questions answered in my next book. Sex, fertility, boobs, urination, odor, pregnancy- you name it. We are women- hear us roar, so let’s banish taboo and finally give the vagina a voice. Nothing is off limits, but do make sure your questions are general and would be applicable to most women.

Ask away, Pinkies. The Doctor Is In. Submit questions in the comments section or Email Me. If you have personal questions that are specific to you and your gynecology issues, please make an appointment to see me at www.clearcenterofhealth.com.  If you don’t live in the Bay area but are interested in talking to me over the phone, please Email me to set up an appointment.

Big Pink Love,
Dr. Lissa

How to Keep UTIs From Zapping Your Mojo

Thursday, August 13th, 2009

uti

Happy Healthy Thursday Pinkies! Dr. Lissa at your service, talking today about perhaps one of the most dreaded afflictions in Pinkdom, the urinary tract infection (UTI). Have you ever had one? If so, you’re probably cringing right now, tempted to cross your legs and hold your pee-pee in with both hands like a little girl who really has to go. Anyone who has experienced it knows that UTIs totally zap your mojo, and since they affect about 8-10 million Pinkies per year, chances are we’ve all been there. Here is the skinny from this end of the stirrups on that sinister, mojo-burgling coochie invader.

How do I know if I have a UTI?

The most common UTI symptoms include urinary frequency (you feel like you have to go, even when you just emptied your bladder), dysuria (burning when you urinate), and hematuria (blood in the urine).  UTIs that ascend to the kidney to cause pyelonephritis can cause fever, back pain, and sometimes nausea/vomiting.

What causes UTIs?

A UTI is a bacterial infection of the urinary tract, which is normally sterile. The most common bug to cause a UTI is Escherichia coli (E. coli), a bacteria that normally lives in the bowel. A variety of things can cause this bowel bacteria to climb up the urethra (the tube from the bladder to the outside world, where the pee comes out).  If E. coli or other bowel bacteria gets into your bladder, it can grow and wreak havoc.

I get UTIs all the time. Why does that happen?

Most people get UTIs rarely, if at all.  If you get them frequently, see your doctor to make sure there are no anatomical defects or health conditions, such congenital defects in the urinary tract or diabetes, that predispose you to UTIs. If that’s ruled out, it may be that your sex life is the culprit.  Most often, UTIs are precipitated by bouts of frequent intercourse (we docs call it honeymoon cystitis.)  Certain sexual positions and behaviors can increase the risk of bacteria from the bowel making its way into the urinary tract.  Do you notice that you only get UTIs when you’re in a relationship and having sex frequently?  Do certain positions always result in UTIs? If so, you may want to take preventative measures to keep you from running to the potty all the time.

What can I do to prevent frequent UTIs?cranberry-juice

  • Drink cranberry juice (yes, it does really help!). But remember, cranberry juice is high in sugar. Cranberry tablets are a good sugar-free alternative.
  • Take high doses of vitamin C. Because vitamin C is a water-soluble vitamin, extra vitamin C spills over into the urine and makes it more acidic. Acidic urine creates a less receptive environment for bacterial growth and reduces the risk of infection.
  • Drink lots of water. Dilute urine keeps the system flowing and prevents stagnation, which also increases the risk of infection.
  • Take probiotics, which can help by altering the bowel flora.
  • Avoid inciting agents, such as caffeine, alcohol, spicy foods, and other bladder irritants.
  • Make sure you and your partner clean your bottoms well with soap and water before sex.
  • Never put anything that’s been in your bottom near the vagina or urethra. If you engage in anal intercourse, bathe before you cross over.
  • If you’re using a diaphragm, you may want to consider other birth control options, since the diaphragm may irritate the bladder.
  • Make sure you wipe from front to back after using the bathroom to avoid contaminating the urethra with bowel bacteria.
  • If you get frequent UTIs related to sex and only have sex here and there, your doctor may recommend you take a dose of an antibiotic before intercourse.

How come I get UTIs and my male partner doesn’t?

Because of the short length of the female urethra, the outside world with all its bacteria is much closer to the bladder than it is in male urinary anatomy. Also, the proximity of the female urethra to the anus increases the risk. (If you’re unsure how all the wires connect down there, take the Pretty Pink Pussy Tour). UTIs are significantly more common in women than in men.

Can I get a UTI from a vibrator?

Like any sexual activity, bowel bacteria can get on the vibrator and contaminate the urethra. If you use a vibrator, make sure you wash it with soap and water before putting a vibrator that’s been near your anus up near your clitoris, which is very close to the urethra.

If I have a UTI, can I still have sex?

If you feel like it, sister, and you’re being treated, go for it! Chances are that sex will be very uncomfortable while you have a UTI, but it’s unlikely to make it worse if you’re already being treated.

I think I have a UTI and I still have antibiotics left in medicine cabinet. Is it okay to take them, or do I need to call my doctor?

antibiotics_and_alcoholMany antibiotics do not work for urinary tract infections.  And remember that antibiotics expire. If you think you have a UTI, you’re better off calling your doctor. Often, what people think is a UTI is actually something else. If you get frequent UTIs and have seen the doctor before to confirm that it is, indeed, a UTI, you can ask your doctor to prescribe refills of your antibiotic, so you’re all set if you get another one.

I keep getting UTIs but antibiotics don’t help. What’s going on?

Have the UTIs all been confirmed UTIs? Often, if antibiotics don’t help relieve the symptoms of frequency and dysuria, the diagnosis is something else. The most common condition people confuse with UTI is interstitial cystitis, inflammation of the bladder unrelated to bacteria. If you think you have a UTI but antibiotics are not helping, see your doctor.

Fear not, Pinkies – as long as you catch them early, UTIs tend to be more of a nuisance than a serious health threat, but they can seriously undermine your quality of life, so it’s good to be informed. Be sure to Own your Health by educating yourself, taking precautions, and being smart. Own that bladder, Pinkies, and keep it healthy!

Clear, free-flowing love,

Dr. Lissa

Happy Healthy Thursday Pinkies! Dr. Lissa at your service, talking today about perhaps one of the most dreaded afflictions in Pinkdom, the urinary tract infection (UTI). Have you ever had one? If so, you’re probably cringing right now, tempted to cross your legs and hold your pee-pee in with both hands like a little girl who really has to go. Anyone who has experienced it knows that UTIs are no fun, and since they affect about 8-10 million Pinkies per year, chances are we’ve all been there. Here is the skinny from this end of the stirrups on that sinister coochie invader.

How do I know if I have a UTI?

The most common UTI symptoms include urinary frequency (you feel like you have to go, even when you just emptied your bladder), dysuria (burning when you urinate), and hematuria (blood in the urine).  UTIs that ascend to the kidney to cause pyelonephritis can cause fever, back pain, and sometimes nausea/vomiting.

What causes UTIs?

A UTI is a bacterial infection of the urinary tract, which is normally sterile. The most common bug to cause a UTI is Escherichia coli (E. coli), a bacteria that normally lives in the bowel. A variety of things can cause this bowel bacteria to climb up the urethra (the tube from the bladder to the outside world, where the pee comes out).  If E. coli or other bowel bacteria gets into your bladder, it can grow and wreak havoc. (If you’re unsure how all the wires connect down there, take the Pretty Pink Pussy Tour).

I get UTIs all the time. Why does that happen?

Most people get UTIs rarely, if at all.  If you get them frequently, see your doctor to make sure there are no anatomical defects or health conditions, such congenital defects in the urinary tract or diabetes, that predispose you to UTIs. If that’s ruled out, it may be that your sex life is the culprit.  Most often, UTIs are precipitated by bouts of frequent intercourse (we docs call it honeymoon cystitis.)  Certain sexual positions and behaviors can increase the risk of bacteria from the bowel making its way into the urinary tract.  Do you notice that you only get UTIs when you’re in a relationship and having sex frequently?  Do certain positions always result in UTIs? If so, you may want to take preventative measures to keep you from running to the potty all the time.

What can I do to prevent frequent UTIs?

  • Drink cranberry juice (yes, it does really help!). But remember, cranberry juice is high in sugar. Cranberry tablets are a good sugar-free alternative.
  • Take high doses of vitamin C. Because vitamin C is a water-soluble vitamin, extra vitamin C spills over into the urine and makes it more acidic. Acidic urine creates a less receptive environment for bacterial growth and reduces the risk of infection.
  • Drink lots of water. Dilute urine keeps the system flowing and prevents stagnation, which also increases the risk of infection.
  • Take probiotics, which can help by altering the bowel flora.
  • Avoid inciting agents, such as caffeine, alcohol, spicy foods, and other bladder irritants.
  • Make sure you and your partner clean your bottoms well with soap and water before sex.
  • Never put anything that’s been in your bottom near the vagina or urethra. If you engage in anal intercourse, bathe before you cross over.
  • If you’re using a diaphragm, you may want to consider other birth control options, since the diaphragm may irritate the bladder.
  • Make sure you wipe from front to back after using the bathroom to avoid contaminating the urethra with bowel bacteria.
  • If you get frequent UTIs related to sex and only have sex here and there, your doctor may recommend you take a dose of an antibiotic before intercourse.

How come I get UTIs and my male partner doesn’t?

Because of the short length of the female urethra, the outside world with all its bacteria is much closer to the bladder than it is in male urinary anatomy. Also, the proximity of the female urethra to the anus increases the risk. UTIs are significantly more common in women than in men.

Can I get a UTI from a vibrator?

Like any sexual activity, bowel bacteria can get on the vibrator and contaminate the urethra. If you use a vibrator, make sure you wash it with soap and water before putting a vibrator that’s been near your anus up near your clitoris, which is very close to the urethra.

If I have a UTI, can I still have sex?

If you feel like it, sister, and you’re being treated, go for it! Chances are that sex will be very uncomfortable while you have a UTI, but it’s unlikely to make it worse if you’re already being treated.

I think I have a UTI and I still have antibiotics left in medicine cabinet. Is it okay to take them, or do I need to call my doctor?

Many antibiotics do not work for urinary tract infections.  And remember that antibiotics expire. If you think you have a UTI, you’re better off calling your doctor. Often, what people think is a UTI is actually something else. If you get frequent UTIs and have seen the doctor before to confirm that it is, indeed, a UTI, you can ask your doctor to prescribe refills of your antibiotic, so you’re all set if you get another one.

I keep getting UTIs but antibiotics don’t help. What’s going on?

Have the UTIs all been confirmed UTIs? Often, if antibiotics don’t help relieve the symptoms of frequency and dysuria, the diagnosis is something else. The most common condition people confuse with UTI is interstitial cystitis, inflammation of the bladder unrelated to bacteria. If you think you have a UTI but antibiotics are not helping, see your doctor.

Fear not, Pinkies – as long as you catch them early, UTIs tend to be more of a nuisance than a serious health threat, but they can seriously undermine your quality of life, so it’s good to be informed. Be sure to Own your Health by educating yourself, taking precautions, and being smart. Own that bladder, Pinkies, and keep it healthy!

Free-flowing love,

Dr. Lissa

Owning Gender: Thoughts on Gender Reassignment

Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009

This post is based on a piece Lissa wrote in her capacity as the OB/GYN On Call at Betty Confidential earlier this month. Enjoy, Pinkies, and weigh in with your thoughts!

chastity

Word on the street is that Chastity Bono, the daughter of Cher and Sonny Bono, is getting a sex change so she can become Chaz. News like this makes big headlines – some might say it’s shocking, even. 

And yet, if you truly understand what it means to be transgender, it wouldn’t shock you.

As an open-hearted OB/GYN physician, I have cared for many in the transgender community, both before and after surgery. In fact, one of my patients, Shania, who was genetically male but post-sex change, came to me for pap smears.

Shania used to be Shane.  For many years, she wore the wrong hat.  When her brothers expected her to play with Star Wars paraphernalia, she preferred dressing up like Sandy from Grease and belting “Summer Nights” in a poodle skirt.  In junior high, when the Sadie Hawkin’s dance rolled around, she wanted to invite Donny, but her brother told her it was girl’s choice, and she was a boy.  Plus, why the hell would she want to invite another boy anyway?   Secretly, when she was home alone, she stripped off her button down shirts and thick leather belts and khaki paints and dressed up in her mother’s panties and high heels.  Only then did she feel like herself.

small feet big shoes

Not until she moved to the big city did she discover she was not alone.  Others who looked like men felt like women on the inside.  Some even had surgery to rectify the error in nature, which kept them from feeling authentic and whole.  Shane saw a doctor right away and began saving up her pennies.  Five years and tens of thousands of dollars later, Shane became Shania, inside and out.

Every year, on the dot, Shania took time off from her job and showed up at my office for a pap smear.  I prescribed Shania’s estrogen therapy, which helped her look and feel more feminine, but that’s not why she came to see me.  Every year, she requested a pelvic examination.  The first time, I found myself dumbstruck.  I read her chart, which said, “Genetic Male- XY chromosomes.”  I’m a gynecologist- I don’t do men- so I had no idea why this patient was scheduled to see me.  I asked flat out, and Shania said, “Dr. Rankin, I’m here for my pap smear.  It’s been a year.”

I flipped through her chart and, sure enough, I found a pap smear report from exactly one year ago, to the date.  I read last year’s pap smear.  The pathologist reported, “No endocervical or ectocervical cells detected.  No pathologic findings.”  In other words, there was no cervix to pap, so no transgender-symbolcervical cancer was detected.

I had no problem with taking care of a transsexual, but why would she want to waste her money on a pap smear when she didn’t have a cervix and couldn’t get cervical cancer?  I said, “Shania, you don’t need a pap smear.  You don’t have a cervix.”

She said, “I know, but I want it anyway.  That’s what we women do.”

After I had done her pap smear for the third year, I couldn’t contain my curiosity, so I asked Shania how it felt to come to the gynecologist’s office, to get a pap smear?

She told me that every time she walked into my office, she saw other women sitting around the waiting room, reading magazines, holding babies, putting on lipstick.  She saw the women behind our front desk, laughing and whispering to each other and talking about their weekends.  She saw my art, filled with imagery of vaginas and eggs and giving birth.  And I see all the women, pregnant and breastfeeding and doing lady things.

Shania went on.  “I see life and camaraderie and beauty.” She closed her eyes and sighed.  “I know I will never give birth or breast-feed or be quite like the other women in your waiting room, and these doubts about who I am haunt me sometimes.  I wonder whether I am really a woman or whether I am only pretending to be.  I think maybe everyone else can see right through me, and that they’re laughing, at work, at the mall, in the grocery store.  Maybe they know I was born a man.  Maybe they think that defines me.  I get very sad, because inside, I know I am a woman. I always have been.  I try to say, ‘To hell with the rest of them,’ but deep down, it still hurts.  So I get unsteady sometimes, wondering.”  A tear smeared mascara down her cheek, and she opened her eyes and looked right at me.

“Then I come here, to see my gynecologist, and I get a pap smear, just like all the other women of the world.”  She reached out and held my hand.  “And that makes me feel like I’m really a woman.”  She smiled a crooked grin.  “No man would be caught dead in a gynecologist’s stirrups.”

I learned so much from Shania’s Yoni.  Which hat or tuxedo or white coat or evening gown we wear does not define us, not really.  Shania’s body revealed a woman, who was really a man, who was authentically a woman on the inside.  Appearances can be deceiving.

inwrongbodyIf Chastity Bono undergoes the types of procedures that are typical for those having gender reassignment surgery, she will likely undergo multiple surgeries to change her body into one that appears male, including genital reconstruction to create a penis, removing her breasts via mastectomy and removing her ovaries to reduce her body’s circulating estrogen levels.  Genital reconstruction for transmen (female-to-male) requires fusing the labia to form a scrotum and inserting prosthetic testicles.  Skin grafts are then used to create a neo-penis, and an erectile prosthesis or other implant can then be inserted to give the penis its rigidity. Sensation is maintained via the clitoris, and the urethra is reconstructed so urination occurs via the penis.  Hormone replacement with testosterone helps change the physical appearance into a more male body.  This way, transmen can urinate, enjoy sexual intercourse and feel comfortable in the skin they’re in. And don’t we all want that?

Shania made me rethink the old adage I often quoted to my patients considering plastic surgery.  I always said, “Learn to live in your355px-human-gender-neutral own skin” and discouraged them from changing their bodies.  But what if your skin betrays you?  It’s easy for me to quote cliché’s, since, aside from the post-pregnancy muffin-top hanging over my low-rider jeans, I look on the outside the way I feel on the inside.  But what if there’s a massive discrepancy?  What if how you look fails to merge with your inner identity?  How many people can get past the exterior to see the real you?  Mostly, I learned how very much I don’t know.

From Shania’s Yoni, I learned that it’s possible to clear away a pathway that allows your true identity to express itself to the world. Like clearing away the rocks that damn up a river and stop the flow of water, unveiling a mask and removing your hats can open the path for the free flow of self.  With all the barriers removed, your heart can shine through, like a beacon, shedding light all around you.

I find that most people who are repulsed by the idea of sex change simply don’t understand it.  What does it mean to get a sex change? Most individuals undergoing what we call “gender reassignment surgery” experience “gender identity disorders” or “gender dysphoria,” meaning that they don’t identify with their genetic gender.  Chances are that Chastity Bono feels male, even though she was born into a female body. Gender reassignment surgery seeks to help these individuals inhabit a body that better fits their sense of self.

It’s easy for those of us who were fortunate to be born into the right gender skin to judge those who aren’t.  But I admire you, Chaz.  What you’re doing takes courage – and BALLS! It’s a struggle for most of us to learn to Own Our Bodies. But imagine how hard it is when you look in the mirror and see the wrong gender.  Let’s send love and blessings to Chaz Bono as she faces this difficult, painful and life-changing decision.  She doesn’t need our judgments. She needs our support, as we would want if we were in her transgender shoes. I feel grateful that I love being female, but I feel for those who don’t. I’m a big fan of living authentically and if it takes gender reassignment surgery to let your essential self shine through, I say more power to you.TarotKarteTransformation

Tell me what you think, Pinkies.  Has Chaz lost it, or is he simply doing what he needs to do to get his Mojo back?  How would you feel if it was you- or your child?  Do tell…