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This morning I sat thinking that I forgotten something. Then suddenly I paled and realized that I forgot to post one of my articles here for Owning Pink, still brooding on the other! I immediately got taken over by all sorts of fears with my inner critic running rampant -- telling me how worthless I was for forgetting, and how I should be ashamed, and how I'm not really a writer. I just sat there and listened to that voice, just listening, not feeling. Then I smiled.

I knew this would happen. Or, actually, it’s been happening, in little peek-a-boo bursts since I entered the nothing. The other day I felt overwhelmed by it.

Good day and Happy Saturday Posse Party to YOU! Welcome Natalie, first time Pink Stage presenter! Though Natalie's presence maybe new to you here on the website, her beaming smile of light and creativity is welcomed often in our community (thanks Universe!). Natalie comes to us all the way from Australia (and soon, Sweden!). Please open your hearts and your mind to the beauty that she is here to share with the world. -- Megan Monique

Please welcome back Tara Mohr, coach, writer and creator of Wise Living, which offers women tools to find their right work and live more fulfilling, authentic, and peaceful lives. Enjoy this beautiful piece that reminds all of us how love communicates through life's obstacles... Thank you, Tara!

I’m currently drawing unemployment from my state. My former place of work is state funded, and it took a 35% budget cut in the summer of 2009. In August of that year, it gave roughly 30% of its workers a 90 day layoff notice. I was part of that 30%. Like the others who were laid off, I began searching for work immediately, hoping I’d have another job by the time that the notice had ended. I didn’t.

Some experiences in life can make us feel simultaneously excited and terrified. That’s exactly how I felt yesterday as I prepared to participate in an hour-long radio interview. I tuned in a little earlier than my scheduled time to hear the previous guest and to get a feel of the conversation -- and after listening for a moment, my heart sank.

How do you express your frustration? Do you yell at friends? Your lover? Pull your hair out? Does it make you feel better?

I believe that, when practiced mindfully and with heart, a tantrum can actually be a powerful self-care tool.

Years back, while voicing my dream to run my own business, a friend gifted me a book called How Much Joy Can You Stand? Although I did read it, I really didn’t need to. The title alone stopped me in my tracks. It was such a different challenge from the socially reinforced practice of noting how “strong one is” based on how much pain one can withstand.

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It began with a conversation with a friend over homemade chai. Within minutes we both suddenly understood that everything we’d each been feeling separately over the past several months – all the darkness and confusion and stuckness and fear – have been in service of a much greater joy that that is waiting for us to claim it as our own.

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