Where do you stand when the s--- hits the fan? When someone gets all up in your grill and is all, “Maybe it won’t work out, and then what? Where will you go, what will you do, who will you turn to? It can’t always work out. Maybe you’re in the percentage that ends up homeless on the street with a tire for a pillow, a grocery cart for a closet, and a cardboard box for your baby’s basinet.” When someone infiltrates your cone of zen and starts peddling fear, where do you go? 

"Transforming our world, through love, one life at a time."

That's the motto at my Unity church.  In Sunday school with the teens last week, my co-teacher reminded the class of that statement.  It was important in the moment because we'd found ourselves in a discussion about what's wrong with the world.  An eighth grader in class had expressed her concern with the younger kids who were more engaged with electronics than they were with the people and places around them.  She said she wished that kids would explore the outdoors, create, and use their imaginations more.  We pondered the issues of our technologically driven society and how isolated we are all becoming.  

There was a moment.  A moment of such profound, terrifying beauty that it rattled the core of my life.  At the time it happened, I was too far gone with anxiety and sadness to know the direction it would propel me. I couldn’t know the impact, significance or timestamp it would place on my heart.  All I knew was I was in the middle school auditorium at my 12-year-old daughter’s’ dance recital on a Mother’s Day weekend and I was losing my shit in a public, sobbing, gulping, nose-running mess. As discreetly as it could, my heart cracked open and tears ran down my neck onto the soft, blond curly hair of the baby I clutched to my chest.

2013 has certainly been an interesting ride for me so far. Coming into the beginning of the year I was riding a big high! My first book had just been published by Hay House, my business was flourishing, opportunities to empower youth and parents were abundantly flowing into my life, I had absolute clarity on my life purpose (or so I thought), and I was in the most heart opening, and love filled relationship I had ever been in. I felt like I had finally “made it” and was truly content in all areas of my life! And just as I started to get comfortable, everything began unravelling before my eyes.